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bitcoin scholar junpei tenmyouji ([personal profile] coolerjunpei) wrote2024-07-01 10:02 am

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Junpei Tenmyouji
Zero Escape

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time for some very gay goodbyes 💖

[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-24 09:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ ketsora. when the assignment finally comes in, coupled with the grouping, charles is just glad the waiting is over — but then, as he talks to his group, gets details of the place... well. it's a good thing he got his magic cricket bat back.

it takes him maybe twenty minutes to pack his bag, most of the time going to wrapping a mirror very, very carefully and stuffing it in the backpack; then, with the handle of his cricket bat sticking out of the bag, he hops into the mirror in his apartment and promptly emerges from the mirror in junpei's house, calling out,
]

Hey, [ and it should maybe be strange, the way this has become normal, him simply stepping out of the mirror without even so much as texting in advance — in many ways, coming here feels more like coming home than his own place does, though charles actively avoids thinking of that more than absolutely necessary. gab is all too happy to provide a distraction from his thoughts, though, running up to him, and charles drops into a squat to scratch him behind his ears, laughing. ]

Yeah, I know, I missed you, [ he says with a soft smile, and as he lifts his eyes from the dog to where footsteps have alerted him to junpei walking closer, too, he tries very hard to pretend he's not saying the words to the both of them.

(he's been gone, what, half a day? doesn't matter, that.)

then, straightening up,
] You told me to stop by before I go. So... [ he shrugs, as if to say, well, here i am. ]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-26 08:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ as he lifts his eyes from gab to junpei, it is just in time to catch that expression on his face before he tries his best to wipe it away; but it's enough for charles to drop his smile, for his own expression to turn into something more concerned. and with the halting words that fill the space between them, well, it's — not strange, not exactly, but he is unused to this kind of distance, like the words that are spoken are simply there in place of something else.

and so when junpei crosses the physical distance separating them, charles wraps him in his arms and holds him like that alone could make whatever lingering awkwardness there is disappear.
]

Course I will, [ he says softly, and maybe he means it more in the way of not being outright reckless, but he will promise this, he'll promise anything if it makes junpei sound less like he's fraying along the edges.

and yeah, maybe he meant to come here and leave almost immediately... but there's no way in hell he's leaving like this. he's not in a hurry; he can catch up with the others easily enough. and now that he's here, it's all too easy to remember that he doesn't actually want to leave at all — what he wants is to stay right here, with junpei and gab, preferably forever.

slowly, he pulls back; his arms never move completely away, though, instead his hands slide up from where they are holding onto junpei, up his back and then onto his arms, staying there.
]

You'll be okay, [ and the sentence starts as a reassurance but ends as a question, like all he really cares about is that he'll be okay, here, and like it's only just now occurring to him that being safe might not equal okay. and he almost, almost says i'll be fine, don't worry, but that'd be assuming that junpei's level of okay-ness depends on him in any way and that's — well, that's a bit egotistical. ]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-28 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ his small frown doesn't go away, because he can see that grimace and hear the way junpei's voice twists and he wants to tell him that it's fine to stay, except it'd only sound placating and not at all helpful — and it's not like he can say what he thinks, either, that his continued state of okay-ness does, in fact, depend on junpei being safe, and if he was out there somewhere charles would not be able to focus on anything else.

maybe he should say as much — but then he's distracted by junpei looking at him, and with a kind of a laugh that sounds almost more like a scoff, he shakes his head and says,
] I'm not a hero.

[ and then, before junpei can try and refute that, he slides his hands from the sides of his arms to his shoulders, leaves his thumbs pressed to the hollows by his collarbones, ] And I'll be fine. I'm going out there with actual superheroes, aren't I? Besides, if all goes well, we don't even need to fight.

[ and if they do — well, then he's got his cricket bat, now, which has served him well for decades.

(does he promise anything? no. is anything that he's saying an agreement that he won't, in fact, step in front of someone else is they need it? no, not really. because it's not a promise he can make, not when he's also going out there with people who need to make it to the terminals — stem people, those who actually know shit about what to do with the ai. in the face of that, he's pretty damn inconsequential.)
]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-28 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't know about the cape, but they definitely have the suits.

[ and really, what are the odds that three out of five in their group are all spider-people — miller must have grouped them together on the basis of them knowing how to work together. but he feels he's lucky to know nearly everyone in his team; they're all good people, shinji and the younger peter and gwen, good and kind and they care about others, about the ai, and, you know. there are definitely those he'd feel less happy to have been grouped with.

but junpei hasn't even once asked to know of the details, and charles is happy to keep it that way — the less he knows about ketsora, about the tall walls of the fortress and its defenses that charles will somehow have to get through, the better.

if something happens to you, junpei says and doesn't finish the statement, and charles thinks, don't you get that that's how i feel about you, and then immediately after thinks, oh, because even if it's not in the same way, with the same depth of feeling as for him — maybe, just maybe, junpei's state of okay-ness does depend on him being safe, too. and though safe isn't something he can promise, not really...

well, that's just fine, because the halting words that follow make something warm unfold inside his chest, make his eyes go soft as he lifts his hand, junpei's own still holding onto his wrist, and places his palm against the side of his face, cupping his cheek gently and brushing his thumb across his cheek.
]

... Yeah. I promise.

[ and is it a promise he should be making? perhaps not, with how so many things can go wrong, with how this could very well be the last time they even meet — and yet, he can't do anything else, because it is the one promise he wants, more than anything, to keep... because there's no one else that he'd want to come back to. ]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 10:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ seeing junpei like this, full of this kind of quiet desolation, well — it just about breaks his heart, and so instead of letting go, charles lets his fingertips run up and down the side of his face. and perhaps strangely, junpei's words have almost the opposite effect on him — because he would much rather he be happy than proud of him, and if him going is causing him to look like this, filled with dread and worry, then is it even worth it to go? what does the entire world matter, when weighed against this, them, here?

he sighs and leans his head down, to touch their foreheads together for just a moment.
]

You know I almost decided not to go? [ pulling back, he gives junpei a small smile, and maybe he wouldn't be able to, if he didn't have decades of experience smiling even when he feels nothing like it. ]

All I really wanna do is stay. That's all I want whenever I'm with you, yeah? [ and that's — that's too close to the words he can't say, not now, not like this, and he rushes to keep speaking, to bury that under the rest of it all. ]

And really, will they need me? Probably not. I mean, why would they? I'm just, [ he shrugs and seems to think that says enough, says a normal guy who happens to be a ghost, that he's not a superhero, he's not like gwen or peter or scott. ] The most I've got is that I can walk through stuff. But... I promised Root. And I don't wanna be the kind of guy who goes back on his promises.

[ another small smile, a little more real than the previous one, tilts his lips upwards. ] So I'll go, because I promised... and I'll come back, because I promised. The second whatever terminal I end up at is dealt with, yeah? I — [ he removes the hand that's still holding onto junpei's shoulder, to jostle his backpack, so junpei can see it's actually stretched pretty tight, like he's just about managed to stuff something that barely fits in there, ] — I have a mirror with me.

[ so it won't take him days to come back, should that be the case for the others — he's literally just one step away. ]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 04:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Where else was I gonna put it, [ he answers with not nearly as much humour as there would be under different circumstances, and yet it's the most levity he's managed during this whole conversation so far. and really, it's not like he doesn't know it's not necessarily ideal, but he can't really carry one with him any other way, and he needs it — there's absolutely no way he's not going to come back the second he can, the very second their reset mission no longer needs him.

and then junpei's arms are around him again and he responds automatically in kind, holds him close and lets his head dip forward so he can rest it against his shoulder for a second or two, lets his eyes fall shut and thinks if i could i'd stay here just like this — except he can't, of course, which is the whole reason he's here. and yet, he's not entirely sure he has the strength to let go, especially not when junpei tells him to stay when he's back, and that —
]

As long as you want. [ he lifts his head as he says this, and perhaps in another situation, he'd make a quip about whether junpei is asking him to move in with him; but he can't joke, not now, and perhaps never about this, not when he thinks he's made it pretty clear there's nowhere else he'd rather be, ever, than with junpei.

but he can't — and with a final squeeze of his arms around junpei, he steps back and turns towards the mirror.
]

Right, [ he says, with a smile that doesn't quite reach his eyes, ] I guess... I'm off, then. [ and to his credit, he makes it as far as the mirror before he turns to look back, and god if the idea of leaving isn't like a physical ache; he takes a moment to simply look at junpei, because if this is the last time they see each other, then he wants to remember. and maybe there's another version of this where he turns back like he wants, where he crosses the distance between them and kisses junpei like he so badly wants to — but in this version of events, he simply stands in place, almost helplessly quiet for a moment. ] Junpei, I — [ he starts, and stops; his smile wavers just a bit. ]

... You be safe. [ and with that, he turns back to the mirror, its surface turning liquidy, his own form turning blue and translucent, and it just takes one step for him to be gone. ]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 06:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ to say that he's a bit distracted on the way to ketsora would be an understatement. the first time they set camp, he contemplates on taking out his mirror and just going back, if briefly — but he can admit to himself that the likelihood of him being able to leave for a second time is abysmal, and so the mirror stays in his bag.

for the entire first night there, he alternates between looking at his phone and wondering whether messaging junpei would make things better or worse, and flipping through his notebook, making idle sketches to pass the time.

the second day, when they're finally on the outskirts of ketsora and preparing their plan for infiltration, the ping of his phone makes charles let out an entirely unnecessary breath in abject relief, because in the end, the only reason he'd not messaged junpei before had been his uncertainty over whether he'd like to hear anything of what's going on — and that he is willing to put aside his distaste for this whole endeavour just to text him, well. that means a lot to him.
]

so far so good.

riding horses is a bloody pain though, can't believe some people do this for fun


[ he stares at the screen a bit too long after that, nearly deleting the whole thing, because they didn't manage levity very well two days ago, can they manage it now? but, god, he can't not try. if he tries very, very hard to be as normal as possible, maybe he'll manifest it into reality. ]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ meanwhile, charles withdraws from the rest of his team, leaving the spiders and shinji to chat while he finds a large enough rock to perch on. ]

yeah, my uncle - mum's brother - he owned some, back in india. we went to visit a few times when i was a kid and he taught me

[ and this — this is normal enough that he can almost fool himself into thinking this is any other day, and they're just spending the time talking about nothing in particular. and if he thinks about it like that it's easier; because if he really lets himself think of everything, well, there's so many other things he'd rather be saying... but just as he hadn't said them before leaving, for a good reason, it's not like the reason has changed in the last two days. ]

brownie. and if you think, oh, it's probably brown, you'd be wrong. it's actually grey. whoever named it has a weird sense of humour
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
hey, you never know. maybe you'd like it. and if i'm teaching you i don't have to ride, so

[ so it's a win all around, really. and besides, thinking about it is — nice, something beyond the immediate future, something that implies there is a normal future after whatever happens with the terminals... and just that alone makes him feel tremendously better. ]

well, actually, dust bunny's a pretty cute name, innit? i could name a horse that.
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 08:11 pm (UTC)(link)
we can find one of those smaller ones for you. or a pony

[ read: you're tiny, actually. but that's cute, so it's all fine. and shh, they're very much not thinking about what's happening after the next few days... ]

well, yeah? i mean, maybe it's not the name for a noble steed or whatever, but if i had to have a horse, reckon i'd rather have one that's old and lazy and dust bunny's perfect for that
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 08:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[ 'i'll get you whatever you want' is what he writes, first, and then just backspaces it away. ]

why not?

[ "because the world might not exist in a day's time or so" is not an acceptable answer. he is very much ignoring that. because there will be a world and he will be able to teach junpei to ride. ]

yeah, it'll be too old and lazy to even bother. you'll have a nice and easy time.

how's gab?
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he's — not entirely sure what he expected as an answer, but what he gets leaves him staring at the tablet with an expression that's as much longing as it is tender. ]

i miss you, too.

[ is it embarrassing? not really, not to him, not when it's simply something that's a fact of his continued existence, now — that any time they're not together, he's going to miss junpei. of course he will. of course he does. ]

shouldn't be too long, now. maybe a day or so. there's still some stuff to do, but

[ but! he's not talking about what it is, or any details... but he hopes once they actually get going with the plan, it won't take too long. ]
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[personal profile] incorrigibles 2024-09-29 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ oh, so they are talking about this, now — he can do this, he thinks, if it's only in relation to how much he wants to be back with junpei. ]

yeah, that's the plan. been long enough, already.

[ frankly, he's not eager to have a repeat of this, oh, ever — this being them having to be apart for this long, specifically. ]

just... wait a bit longer, yeah?

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